can someone tell me, am i lost ?
can someone tell me, what I'm doing?
can someone tell me, is this what i want?
can someone tell me, if i am still me ?

sometimes i feel as thought I'm lost and have lose everything Else there is no other person who knows me better then me, no other person who goes shopping with me, who thinks like me, who just another more or better me. After i lose my friend someone dear, although its only a year. Yet i shed so much tears. Maybe i should make new friends, but no one like you treasure and appreciates me like you do!

Everything just sucks now everyone changing, getting my so annoyed with everything! cursing and swearing at everything i do, does not makes sense, when i get high and hyper i just feel like I'm with you but its all different.Sometimes i have to be something I'm not in order to please everyone I'm not like that i don't want to be everything has changed everyone i do not know how to tell her I'm just so frustrated with her. i need your help your best at comforting me no one listens to me but wants me to listen to them everyone just wants me and once their done they dump me a side but with you i feel home, i feel save, i know you would never abandon me :(

please come back quick.

time flys
10:57 pm

This is stupid stupid ARGH ARGH i hate this blog thing maybe i should convert to xanga but i don like xanga i have been using blogger for like forever! anyways i do not wanna complain about blog abwdfmngvnbv anymore i have a story to tell !!


There were three friends they found each other in the later part of their childhood, and they play laugh cried but as time goes past these three friend change in their ways there are more cries and very few laughter. Many of times they get very very far from each other and even thought their physically with each other but mentally they are somewhere Else. Everyone tried to hold on to each other not letting go but we are all worn out, how long can this continue, will we still holding on to empty promises, sometimes thing change so much, you feel that you change to.


i don't know whats with me i just felt that i don know SOMETHING!! I feel so sensitive after watching some volcano documentary on national geographic channel it was so sos super awesome. Making me like super super inspired to be like a REAL REAL vocalist it like so coooooool ! but also sad watching how such a beautifully eruption cause the lives of so many. like the story a simple beautiful friendship actually causes a lot of pain.

ARGH OK enough volcano etc etc etc, today me and siti talked about the type of fun we used to have before coming to the stressful 15year of our sad and miserably life. its sad so sad we tried to have fun in our little ways but still feel so constricted. even a simple fool can be come a joke now when in the older days is a prank after a prank after a prank so much to talk about!

Well there is a lot of things getting to me now, is like one day volcanoes will all erupt and the world will come to an end everyone will die not because of lava but this new therm i just learnt "Pyroclastic lava" it is not liquid lava is more like ashes and more ashes with a very high temperature its like more deadly then any other lava !! its hard to run way from hard to predict super scary !!


too much tv is bad chelsea !!

time flys
11:16 pm

Change back to the old skin UNTIL i find a suitable one that fits in all my criteria !!!

time flys
10:44 pm

ARHHHH! blogger is seriously annoying and glad wants me to change to xanga but this is super saddening i have like 200. 300 don know how many post in blogger i started blogging when im like in p6 !! how could i leave me blog :(

time flys
10:28 pm

ARGH ARGH ARGH i feel like killing myself sometimes, i think that i can go totally out of control like seriously. I should start acting more matured argh! this is so annoying like today i feel like I'm fooling around so much i feel so argh i made my friend angry because of some shit i said argh!( i must say sorry to her for making fun of her CCA :( ) i don't want to be like this i feel so disappointed in myself. When have i become so irresponsible, so UN-caring, so i don know i feel like a jerk or even a bitch sometime i just wanna hide my face from the rest of the world!

Anyway for now i must finish up all my HOMEWORK! annoying shit, i feel so vague this week i have been swearing non stop even now! SERIOUSLY CHELSEA LOW CAN YOU PLEASE ACT YOUR AGE!

HOMEWORK
- Geo write up
- Finish the darn physics notes
- Chinese tuition hw
- math tuition hw
- Revise SS
- Think how to make a stupid thermal flask

sorry about the homework thing i just felt like putting it here ! THIS term i must not be so slack and must must do all my homework and revise like 243234325 hours a day!! ARGH!

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8:22 pm

time flys
10:32 pm

Finally blogger is like "working".

Anyways about my lovely day(:
TODAY was awesome, is like one of those fun angklung days that have you happy and tried but satisfied.

Had tuition until 10.30 finally like grasp the stupid math thing, rush rush rush and finally reach school when I'm suppose to meet Pauls all at 11 cause we doing something for SOMEONE! GLADYS little birthday celebration with a little bread talk cake and sesame street party hat.

Combine with STC, and like again their school is like hogwards so magical. HA but this time we didn't use the small econ lab LUCKY! So we waited for their dance people to finish up with this awesome room with like a mini stage like u know phantom of the opera kinda thing. Went to their canteen little smaller den ours but nice FOOD! Waited awhile and went up to set up all. We previewed each others SYF pieces. STC was good for a very "young" band with many sec 1s. AND whoa their melody player PEGGY/penny i think she is like dammit FEELING IT! And i have cousins, PEOPLE who play Pb, it was really fun chatting with them all! And when we were playing, coming in with some boom some of there were like shock, it was such a funny sight hahah cute. And when we were all like cut and like total silents they were like whoa! Well it like good that some people really like how we play because we have been getting a lot of insults from the pass few weeks so this really boast our freaking EGO , BUT also "light" the flames of STC make them like whoa we must work hard ! WELL hope both SAC and STC (all S for super duper) will get a gold ((:

After the combine and much much highness but no Clare no drum hair thing :( we all sat down and talked about like the usual stuff say bye bye, tease Stace about the HIGH pony tail, hugged everyone, see them on Monday and stuff me, Pauls, Pris and Mel went to eat stingray !!! it was freaking hot!

Like i say today was awesome ((:

time flys
8:42 pm

theres something wrong with blogger fag you.

time flys
3:15 pm

CHELSEAs BEST SPOT: The toilet yes yes i like to hang in my toilet, my lovely bluish toilet is the best place where ME reflect on everything.

I've just finish showering (i love late showers) my sis and i were talking about everything in the toilet and i found out that i am like a super hero in her life. REASON: i saved her BLOG and i can do curly stuff. I felt super touch when i ask her "ain't you proud of a sister who know so much html and curly stuff" and she said " ya sort of " (she is a very "shy" kinda person) i felt so happy i was smiling to myself in the shower (:

Anyway today CCA was super emo, but this felt like a real SYF practice, everyone was in the zone but abit restless, i was again touched, hearing that ms faridah was super concern about us only having one holiday day to our self and the rest for cca, my tears just started rolling down PLUS Ms faridah do not deserve us, the way we treat her. :( I feel dam shit at the moment.

A lot of talking went round , Amanda scream :( poor girl i do not even wanna imagine myself in her shoes i would just freak. But something super happened when the kuls played today i felt like my heart was going in and out of my body, a kinda feeling like "last time" it was dam GOOD! i like that feeling, i also like the feeling when I'm on stage and all my attention is on ms faridah i feel so not lost, yar but that's not the point anyway i think / have a Strong feeling that angklung band can/will get a gold (: ha ha with the help of the lovely PBpeeps ! Right stace tan!haha

YEAHNESS i have the whole day to myself tomorrow, plans? Dad said i cant go wake boarding with him BOOO! But i can play moon harvest with Charis the whole day!! yeah ! and watch many talk shows and drama and maybe go run few laps working to get my faging "abs" back (:

time flys
11:13 pm

Well its a very bored and sleep day, today. play with my sisters and cousins some moon harvest game, and when i was earning so much money the fag computer just shut down or the whole entire game just vanish argh!

Just watched The Arena it was dam interesting pity SAC is not in it, but why i have yet to ask the geeks why.

Anyway i hate all my pills it making me feel like crap, dam sleepy!

time flys
9:40 pm

HELLO, i have bad news your lovely blogger Chelsea low has been infected by FOOD POISONING!

HOW, WHY ,WHEN. Well i know every ones worried, so here i go about how i got this horrible food thing!

Lets start from SYF CAMP

FRIDAY 9 march 2007
The second day of my mens, mood : not good, Marilyn is not coming for camp :(. Fooled around in canteen and when everyone was getting down the stage i acted "smart" and came down the table and on the the bench but on my way down i hit something and hence i have a huge blue black on my knee that look like a freak animal cell marked " result of skateboarding" to make me sound
more "cooler" ha ha. Tones of briefing and all

Music: not bad can improve.
Food: bad ( as usual )

Didn't think that i would have POISONING! DANG!

Saturday 10 march 2007
Clare work up like dam early and Stace came to me like some "horror movie female ghost" asking ( i forgotten what she ask) but her hair was like wooooo you know. Shower all blah blah blah

Mood: suck (forgotten how i feel)
Food: suck suck i like the dumpling.

Still feeling fine no problem just tried and the stupid blue black and scaring all my friends INCLUDING MYSELF, looking at it makes all my little hair stand!! EEE 12 people got infected by the food after lunch, Manda took care of them ( she was like a mother with a kettle of hot water)

Music : siti was conducted, play and play kinda sick so i was bored when to the drums and play some rubbish and Clare join me and we taught Mel how to play nicely and hence we got super high and play as well as entertained fellow Angklung/Pb members it was bloody funny.

Went for preview thing Alaine was so dear she rub my blue black for me it became better/ bigger, scaring more people so after much rubbing i went to talk to Angklung people and Adeline was fiddling with my shoes don't know what she's doing. I FOUND OUT ONLY WHEN THIS HAPPEN ( Ms Faridah called kuls to come and talk about the instrument and all, there was this mat on the floor and "we cant step on it" so i step on the chair and i lose control and turn/ roll??? just fall on the ground with nearly 3/4 of the band and more people staring!) ADELINE tied my shoes together! so they laugh tease etc etc

Went through all the rehearsal ate mac..wash up, try to look good, convince everyone that there's nothing to be scared of watch the preview of other cca, wave at my parents, sister coming to me (embarrassing). It our turn ( some how i felt OK not shy all) cheer for our self/ Pb people and started playing it sounded OK rush abit etc etc BUT everyone looked dead :(.

Finish, watch others , evaluate on how we did , cheer , talk to ms Faridah , Amanda and Siti cried, drama everywhere, WE should be called (Angklung+Drama=Angkma) but it sad to see Amanda crying all the pressure on her makes me wanna do better and not screw and fool around :( . listen to what ms Faridah have to say and agree told Pauls and glad "i think we can do it" BUT they didn't reply me guess who did, ms Loh! she said "yes you can" embarrassed. But couldn't agree more, pack up, call mom, pack classroom, eat some good food, saw lots people there, talked to them, go home

FELT FINE NO FOOD POISONING

Sunday 11 march 2007
sleep,tuition,sleep,comp,"did" homework.
shit 4 times !!! GROSS..

Monday 12 march 2007
hope that my stomach feel pain so i don have to go to school. result: perfectly fine. curse and swear the school for ruining my march holidays! Reach school everyone saw my blue black, got freak everything was as usual, no one did math.

CCA was OK did memorising of scores i was fine all the way until 4 plus i felt so weak some fag headacrh thought it would go away, DIDN'T so went home, vomited the 1st thing i got home it was sick, sleep awhile and went to the doctor, i was poisoned !

SO there after the long syf camp i finally got sick ! WELL changed my blog skin MELLY what do you think ((:

time flys
11:07 pm

FAAG THOSE PEOPLE WHO WENT FOR FOB CONCERT *POOOP* NO FAIR

Anyway my day went pretty well at Alaine's party although going for their concert would be nicer-er! dang it! i hope i see joe somewhere in singapore , come to sac !!!!

i have pictures but argh jkfndv sivw s lazy to upload sorry gladdo Apicture of the FAMOUS twins we interviewed!! HAHAHAHAHAH funnY! played capitals ballll in the void deck and and flew a kite !

NEVER MIND CHELSEA, when u grow up you don need to ask your parents if u can go for some mindblowing concert yar (: (: cheer up and fag those bloody Americans who push pris fag you arsse holes.

time flys
8:13 pm